i use to work at a bank a few years back as a teller. it was in an older community. i hated it. because majority of the elders were mean and constantly difficult. but they are the few who walk in with a smile. flirt. and just look like they have had the best life. i donno. if your jaded now. you will be later. if your happy now you will be later in life. something about your daily life that create these brain waves...myopsis... i donno. im not a science buff. but i think it has something to do with it.
so enjoy the changes of the seasons... and love yourself.
I was recently working with the elderly you know taking them to and from their day centers and so forth. How ever I was shocked one day when working with one of the other drivers. He said "you see that old boy you just helped on the bus, he's 85. Well see the old dear who sits beside him, she's 75 (both live in the same retirement block of flats). You watch when we take them back she goes into his flat for tea, nudge nudge wink wink. How do you know their still at it, I said. Well the warden found him crying the other day and he asked him what's wrong. His answer was " I cant satisfy her any more". I guess he was having trouble letting go. Passion depends on the individual and his or her state of mind.
Do the words "internal conflict" bear any relevance ?
Hmm. It's not quite that, though, Wocca. That would imply I'm fighting within myself - but I mean I'm fighting with myself 'cause there ain't nobody else there.
At least you have writing as an outlet source