have u ever had the feeling, that u cant stay long in on eplace. U need to leasve, dont know exactly why, Leaving friends and family behind, alone, to search a new adventure, one busride after the other, ...what are we looking for? is there the place that makes us happy? isnt it bout the people, who makes u feel like u were "at home"? Doesnt this has to do somethng with time and a longer stay? How to feel at home if i feel odd in my homecountry ( people already tell me I am not typical for my country, ), when i am there i wanna leave, when i am somewhere else, i i ask my self why i always make my life so difficult. Why didnt i get a job at home, where i can communicate well? Where i am not the stupid foreigner? I loose ties. I chyange my self, learning from experiences...change so quickly that i sometimes dont know myself anymore.
Guess a bunch of u knows pretty well what i am talking about. So what are u doing, how to settle down mentally? ANyone has experiences with this? of course, we all have to go our own way, but a point in a direction, should not do no harm...
The choice of what we could do is so inmense, that i cant take it. I could do a shitload of jobs in bnearly every country....No barriers, but too difficult to choose and understand what could make me happy. since we never know before...well, propalby in the end we dont decide, a joboffer comes in, we decide spontaneously...and, it happend, planning makes no much sense anyways...or does it?
Ok, got a weird day today, sorry to confuse some off u. These how finished reading ....guys, i am already curious but your thoughts.