"I gave my life to become the person I am today...Was it worth it?"
-Richard Bach, author
the first time i read this question, it really made me stop and think....you hear about people giving their lives for something that they believe in...i gave my life to become this human i am right now...have all the sacrifices i have made been worth it?
the surprising and pleasing thing is that yes, i think it was worth it. looking back on my life, i can think of only one or two events that i am ashamed enough of that i would take them out of my life if i could...everything has contributed to the splendid woman that i am today, and if i changed those, i would change me, and goshdarn it i like me! and (less importantly) others like me too! i just need to forgive myself for a few things and really see their value in the mosaic that makes up Me.
how about you? have you been able to see the good that arises from the less-than-good situations in your life?
i heard an expalnation of the symbolism of the lotus flower once that i loved...ca't remember what it is, but i think the gist of it is this:
the lotus is a symbol of purity of heart/spirit/mind that grows and blooms to brilliance in spite of being rooted in impurity of swamp/mud, rising above the grime to share it's beauty with all whom observe it.
that was my interpretation.
yes i think its been worth it, in my own life i've also done things i probably shouldn't have, but i've also done some good things too, they all balance out and make me who i am, the person that my family and friends love / put up with / try to understand etc.....
Its like the butterfly effect. How much would changing one tiny thing about your past, alter what you have become in the future? It comes down to a mix of good and bad experiences in life, both ones in your control, and ones out of it. too much of one, and the way you look at life will be too cynical and bitter, too much of the other and it will be unrealistic and naive, so if your happy with who you are right now, and you like life, then you got it right and yes, it was worth it! w
It's okay to have regrets without wasting time mulling over and obsessing about your mistakes or the unfortunate things that have happened in your life.
What's the use?
I can think of one massive mistake that I've made. At the time it seemed like a hole I was never going to be able to climb out of. But I did, and there are days now when I wonder if it hasn't added a lot to the person I am these days....Of course, if I could have that time back I would do things differently, but as that's never going to happen, i have to take what good I can from the experience.
I really like that analogy of the Lotus flower....its very fitting.
I vaguely remember a line from the film "Shadowlands" - it went something like "God is our sculptor. The blows of his chisel which hurt us so much are what make us perfect"....not that Im sure that's true either...but that's a discussion for another day....
I wish I had supressed all curiousity towards the opposite sex when I had the chance. Nothing but trouble !