I really haven't been on this forum for a few years now, although even being on here for a few minutes makes me feel at home and really among good people!
I want to describe the progress from one of my original posts 'travel intimidations' so that others who have had these problems or our having them can come together and share our challenges, problems, triumphs, and ultimately adventures!
My original post described me not being ready to travel because when I had tried I became very lonely and was unable to talk to people as much as I'd like. I tried 'doing' Europe only to fall short becuase I couldn't connect with other travellers in youth hostels and around the place and got pretty unhappy.
I knew travelling and adventuring was one of my biggest passions but at the time I couldn't get myself out there. Now looking back I'm so glad I didn't force anything and saved my money, time and spirit until I really was ready. I went on adventurous holidays with close friends, feeling safe and supported, and eventually was given an opportunity to go to China with loads of other Uni students. Instead of now fearing this I remembered all the advice I was given here, relaxed and put myself out there only when I felt comfortable and actually wanted to.
The results: an unforgettable experience! I made a lot of great friends and had some amazing adventures..the kind that if I forced any of it I probably would have gone back into myself.
Since then my confidence has gotten better and better and I'm following my dreams left, right and centre. In part it's thanks to this forum and the support I was given! I spent a year in America as a study abroad program and had the best year of my life, experiencing the whole country as best I could. In one month I have an internship in Beijing then I'll be travelling in Thailand, and then I'll have my long term internship in Borneo working with Orangutans (one of my dream jobs).
So this post has two main aims. First is to pay homage to those who showed me love and support on this forum over 3 years ago when I was a fledgling. I'm still amazed people came to my help when they didn't even know me but could empathise with how I was feeling.
The second reason is to place this as a marker to let people know that really when you have times when you think you have problems inside you that can hold you back from your dreams it is not forever and with support, will, being kind on yourself and belief in yourself you will get there eventually.
Big love to all the travellers out there on their endeavours!